Sunday, August 13, 2006
sometimes , i rly wonderwad m i waiting for
m i jus waiting for a guy to show up wif another being all lovey-dovey?
or m i jus waiting for a guy who comes n say hi n den immediately bye.
yes ; perhaps i tink too much
i tot i can understand how u feel
but still , today , is the day i wake up
wake up from my fantasies ;
my dream ;
my hope
but im oso wondering, if u ever feel guilty
for bringing my hopes so high
n crushed them one by one by your own hands
perhaps u nv knew
u nv knew the feeling of ur whole world being ripped open slowly ;
by the bare hands of ur loved ones
u nv knew,
u dun understand
u jus dont ;
i hate the way u promised me ;
but yet breaking it in another second,
pls, if u still care bout me ,
stop tormenting me ;
but i doubt u will ever do so ,
u lead ur own life ,
n i lead my own immature lifestyle
lik drenching myself n all tt
i wash away the unseen tears by drenching myself wif water
n u drink ur problems away
u lead ur own life
ur mature
ur "in" life
i jus dont
forget it;
i promised myself not to let you design the way i should live n all tt
mayb the me last tym was too...
too mindful?
too mindful bout wad u`ll say
too mindful of wad u`ll feel
im afraid tt u`ll be sad
im afraid to see my boy tear ;
im afriad, but i can say
all tt i ever do,
i put YOU into consideration
i considered ur pride ,
i considered ur feeling
lastly,
i didun wan u to feel cheated
but seriously, hv u considered how i feel n all tt?
NO.
N-O no ;
u jus come up wif another girl,
feeding each othr and all tt
forgetting wadeva u`ve promised me
it over
i guess ;
its all over ,
forgive me for protecting me , for not wanting u to be hurt ; n i`ll forgive u for hurting me
xxxx.
type out how i feel
arh ; better. [:
today was food n funfair
but it was a rather unpleasant becos of you-noe-who
but i rly lik the dunking part. ((:
water ballons ; HERE I COME!