Designer: Manikka
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i walked out of the hospital , feeling morbidly weird

dialled a few of my friend's mobile.
no one picked up the phone.

it didnt matter.


i didnt know wad's happening to me either.


i saw the familiar no. plate moving towards me.
asking if i want a lift ;

"hey , do you want to join us for dinner?"
"no thanks"
"why not?"
"well , you guys go ahead and have a great time -smiles weakly-"
"alright , be careful on your way home"
"i will. (:"


actually i jus wanted to be alone .
take some time off my busy schedule.


look at the busses buzzing past me.
look at little chilren pleading their mom for a ar of chocolate or two.
saw the ice cream man , smiling warmly at kids clamouring for a scoop of ice cream.

i wondered how much have i lost , how much had i missed out in my life.


but i jus continued walking.


i didnt know where was i heading.
with nothing in my mind.


i had no idea where the freaking bus stopwas.
i jus walked slowly.


saw buses passing by , wanted to ask them to slow down , wait for me.
wait for me to catch up on them.

but i know it's impossible.


how can a bus stop for a person?

board a bus asked if the bus was heading towards commonwealth MRT station, the bus driver didnt catch my question.

i jus assume yes. boarded the bus. noticed tt the bus was going in a weird direction.
got off.
and once again, i was lost.



i felt so cold and alone all of a sudden.


it didnt matter.,
sometimes i wished i could jus take a wrong bus and nv come back.



i noe it's impossible. but i still wish i could do tt.
a pity singapore is too small.
i cant get lost so easily.



& even if i do , i noe i have to find my way back one day.



i recalled wad the doctor said.

"she'll be fine if she manage to pull throug monday"
rushed into the hosp. , and she saw me.
my tears almost burst out , didnt know wad to do.


knew tt couldnt let her see me cry.
knew tt i should mke her worried.
knew t i have to be strong.



asked if she's feeling better.

she said shes afraid she migt no be able topull through , to see my cousin getting married.
afraid tt she wont be abe to give me red packets for me during lunar new year.


i wanted to cryso badly.

i told her i'll be back after i go to the toilet.

but i cant bare to go back , to see the fragile look on her face.
i told my brother to go in instead , and left the hosp.



back to the wandering.
took the same no. back , and took bus 198 home.



its such a long trip.
but it didnt matter.





i need some time to be alone i guess.





wad's happening to me delphine?